Hello reader(s), Assalamualaikum.
In case you've accidentally landed here, uhm, welcome, I guess?
This is unrelated to anyone. Probably just a random rant. A nonsensical, pointless and no-point rant to be exact.
This past January had been rough. Not saying the heart-wrecking kinda rough, but, a roller coaster kinda feelings. Sedih, sendu, happy, terkejut, awkward, hampa, kecewa, bangga, rindu, penat, bersyukur. Those kinda feelings.
I randomly re-write in this blog after like berapa bulan entah, sebab terfikir nak tulis dalam IG, tapi nanti berjela, dan rasa macam a bit too personal pula. Maka, di sinilah saya mendarat.
Januari kali ni terasa panjang, dan memenatkan. Entahlah sebab naik dari cuti panjang ke, sebab hadap report yang dari tahun lepas tak siap-siap ke, sebab urusan haji ke, sebab kena tukar team ke, sebab buat larangan-Nya ke... Entahlah. Mungkin a little bit of everything.
Terasa hanyut. Both literally and figuratively. Lagi-lagi bila baca balik posting blog ni yang lama-lama. Ke mana perginya Atika yang dulu? Apa terjadi dengan dia? Kenapa dia dah berubah? Kenapa jadi semakin munafik? Kenapa semakin tak sihat? Old those kenapas...
Sendu tu entah. Mungkin sebab dah selalu bergelumang dengan dosa, sampai dah jadi terbiasa, dah jadi habit. Cant shed it.
Kadang-kadang rasa tak puas hati. Rasa nak memberontak, rasa marah. I am able to understand the situation and that is the thing that makes me even angrier. To myself of course. Sebab I boleh faham and rationalise the situation and I am able to grasp the thought on why it has come to that choice.
Anyway, cringe betul ya baca postings yang dulu. Siap emoticon ^^, guna KGN Tika. Help 😭Okaylah, tu je kot dulu. Tengoklah kalau sat gi bila-bila tiba-tiba rajin nak membebel lagi. Okay bye!